it happens all the time.

Need You Now by Lady Antebellum.

the only upside to this idiocy is that it's potent enough to get me back on track with blogging. well, no, I don't think I'll be back to blogging as regularly as forever ago. until this dies down and I learn what I should've learned at some point in the last couple of years, I guess.

I am giving so much away, omg. XDDD

what's funny is that although I barely thought about it today -- I was literally way too sleepy the whole day to even concentrate on important school shiz -- there were a couple of instances that some random thing [or person LOL] shows up and reminds me of it and for a brief second, I would feel my whole body freeze and I couldn't really process things until after that moment. then I'd go back to walking or doing whatever I was doing. maybe a little shaky, at first, then I'd be back to normal in no time.

that should be a good sign.

..or it could also mean I was just too fucking sleepy to be bothered with anything. even the things I went to school for. XD

in other news, revisiting my Mutliply account and seeing the bajillions of photos from freshman to junior year is making me miss high school even more -- except that, unlike the other times that I'd miss high school because of my class and my friends, this time, I actually kind of miss the drama. just a teeeeeeny tiny bit. because everything seems so much simpler then than they are now, and by everything, I mean even the drama.

it might have something to do with the drama being.. fresh and new, somehow, that it was okay to hafta deal with it then. dealing with the same kind of drama years later, when it's all supposed to be left in the past, not anymore recurring, is just exhausting. sure, you know how it goes because you've been through it before [which might sound like an advantage], but the repetitiveness and the STUPIDITY it implies would be the exhausting parts.

okay, I'm too tired to finish ranting. I have more important things to do. ffs, why am I even wasting time on this when I have longass readings and a life-and-death long test [lol math] to think about?


SEE? IDIOT. fuck this shit. =))