Fly.

I need to make some serious changes in my life.

Big, serious changes.

It's like everything and everyone around me is moving on and moving forward all of a sudden when, not too long ago, we were all happy and comfortable where we were.

I guess it was just me that was comfortable and not entirely happy. Everyone I know is moving on to something new and exciting--new relationships, new adventures, whatever else there is that could be new in someone's life--while I'm sitting here, living the life I've lived for the last nineteen years, doing the same things I've been doing the last few years, without much change aside from longer hair and a little more weight and fat here and there. And, really, I didn't mind the familiarity very much--if anything, I actually appreciated how constant things were in my life, without anything shaking it around in a way that's too much for comfort. I was perfectly okay hanging out with the same people, listening to the same music, eating the same junk, going to the same places, and doing the same things all the time. I was thankful for my comfort zone and the people I shared it with.

All of that disappeared in the blink of an eye. All my friends are venturing into new things, dreaming up new dreams, meeting and hanging out with new people, while I'm stuck in my old life. My bubble's been pretty much burst by the fact that I'm the same age as they are /even older than some/ and yet I'm not exactly making something out of my life.

So yeah, I could go on and on about how pressured I am that everyone's moving on except for me, and that I feel like I'm wasting my life by not doing something new, but that's a lot of heartache for one blog entry, so nevermind. All I really need to say out loud is that I have plenty of changes to make in my life, and I hope that they will be changes that would improve my life as well as my dealings with everyone around me.

How I'd do all that, I will first try to figure out, then I'd get back to you.