Some things never change.

And as much as I try to convince myself that you've turned over a new leaf years ago, you continue to give me reason to allow myself a few moments to think otherwise. My guard has always been up with you, although it's never put up high enough for me not to get hurt along the way, and I guess I will have to keep it up for the rest of my life.

I love you. I really do. But you keep giving me reason to hold back on it and keep my guard up, and unless you miraculously change that /which I thought you already have/, it's gonna stay up. Not that it's gonna be easy, given how convincing you can be sometimes, but I will hafta try.